I have been lost in this grieving process that I haven't been there for my older boys...
Connor scared me to death on Thursday when he had a febrile seizure in front of me.
(he has been sick with what I thought was a cold...he had an upper respitory infection plus an ear infection...he was running high fevers as well...the doctors said the fevers most likely caused the seizure.)
That woke me from the fog I was in....I felt so guilty that I couldn't even think what was happening to my boy...for that I will never forgive myself.
Tomorrow Ethan would have been a month old....I wonder how things would have been if I had gotten the second opinion.
I will try to blog more often..but for now I am going to be spending quality time with my family.
I still think of your family every day. You made the best decision and God took care of the rest. He is always with you. You rally on for those boys.
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